Do you ever have those times in your day when you start to reflect on your past and before you know it you venture down the road of regret?
This week I had to dig deep into my past. Sergio, Ashley, and I spent hours this weekend editing our book. We made it a goal to add more details and feelings to reveal a clear picture of our past. Our book is to help connect our past to who we are today. We wowed to open up our hearts as we continue to work on our mission.
As I sat and reflected my mind began to flow freely from one scene to the next. Some of these scenes showed me peace with a clear understanding. Those memories made a smile form on my face. Others showed pain and despair and shocked my system. These memories moved so many emotions within me. The emotions felt as if I was reliving these events today. Even though these particular parts of my past had been so long ago it was apparent that it could drive me to a place of discomfort.
Tears began to grow inside of me and I had to apologize to Ashley while she was helping me through this process. I had to pause to wipe my tears often.
I could feel my chest start to tighten and the regret overtaking my thoughts. The sharp turn that occurred was powerful. Regret was guiding me, questions engulfed me. Could I have made a different choice that would change the course of some of the trauma I experienced?
Could I have listened better to guidance? More and more questions continued to pass in my mind. I was headed to the land of regrets until that still small voice whispered to me to turn back! Turn back to reflecting. Once I could control my emotions I was able to listen to the voice more clearly. I heard that is was okay to reflect on the parts of my life that I would of prayed to have come out differently, but I did not need to regret my past nor did I need to be ashamed of it. My past is what made me the person that I am today. My past is what drives me to be a better person today. Without my past would I know grace at its fullest?
Whenever you start to reflect on your past steer clear of regret. Remember that you are a warrior of your past. You are an over comer that wears a badge of victory.
2 Timothy 4:7 says I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
Remember to reflect and not to regret.
As I thread through.